Jeanne
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Driving into work this morning, I heard the song "Something to belive in" by Poison (Yes, I am an 80's fanatic). Part of the song talks about how his friend died. This got me thinking about Kelli's loss of her son Hayden, which happened 1 year ago today. And, it also got me thinking about the loss of my Father which happened on Feb 7, 1999.
My Father died of Lung Cancer at the early age of 62. But his story is a sad one. It all started in Nov 1996. It started by him "Seeing" things that weren't actually there, saying weird things like that he saw someone whom had been dead for many many years. This got really bad over about 2 weeks, then he was diagnosed with Dementia. Anybody who has know someone with this disease knows it is extremely difficult on the person with the disease as well as for their loved ones. I remember many nights of coming home finding him in the cellar looking for his bedroom and having to explain to him why it wasn't down there. Or, trying to tell him that his childhood friend wasn't really alive anymore, etc.
After a few weeks, this progressed and things got MUCH worse. I was at work one day when I saw my brother in law and my boss walking towards me with a horrible look on their faces, I knew that something terrible had happened to my father, I immediately fell to my knees crying. It turns out my father was in the E.R. because he was sitting at the table at home with my Mom, when he looked up to the ceiling and fell over backwards shaking uncontrollably.
We found out he had a Grand Maul Seizure and a Stroke at the same time. I remember getting to the E.R. and seeing my father lying on the bed in the fetal position. I have never been so scared in my life! I totally lost control of my body and fell to the floor. Seeing my father, a Strong Man, as vulnerable as a child. He spent the next month in the hospital having tests done, etc. All that time, all he wanted was to go home. He didn't know what was going on because of the Dementia. Everytime my Mother or one of us (His Children) would leave he would want to go with us, and when we said he couldn't it broke his heart, he thought we were leaving him there and couldn't understand why. A few times I would go visit him and the nurses would have him in restraints! One time, they had him in an adult High Chair like he was a child! I was never so mad in my life! I immediately called my mother who came right down and took care of the situation. After that, Either my Mother or one of us kids would be there with him 24 hours a day so that wouldn't have to happen again.
Christmas Eve came, and he was still in the hospital. What a horrible Holiday that was for all of us, 18 people at my sisters house trying to be jolly. All of a sudden the phone rings and it was one of the nurses at the Hospital, my father wanted to talk to us to see why he couldn't be with us on Christmas Eve? He actually though we didn't want him with us, he didn't know he was sick. Hoe do you explain to your father who thinks he is perfectly healthy that he can't be with his family on Christmas?
In Feb, after extensive tests, they found a Tumor in my fathers lungs. He died about 2 weeks later. My Father never did come home, which was all he ever wanted to do.
I am writing this because I wish I could tell my father I Love him one more time. If you have a child, a mother/father, or anyone that means anything to you, PLEASE make sure they know how you feel! No matter how long you think life is, it always turns out too short in the end.
My Father died of Lung Cancer at the early age of 62. But his story is a sad one. It all started in Nov 1996. It started by him "Seeing" things that weren't actually there, saying weird things like that he saw someone whom had been dead for many many years. This got really bad over about 2 weeks, then he was diagnosed with Dementia. Anybody who has know someone with this disease knows it is extremely difficult on the person with the disease as well as for their loved ones. I remember many nights of coming home finding him in the cellar looking for his bedroom and having to explain to him why it wasn't down there. Or, trying to tell him that his childhood friend wasn't really alive anymore, etc.
After a few weeks, this progressed and things got MUCH worse. I was at work one day when I saw my brother in law and my boss walking towards me with a horrible look on their faces, I knew that something terrible had happened to my father, I immediately fell to my knees crying. It turns out my father was in the E.R. because he was sitting at the table at home with my Mom, when he looked up to the ceiling and fell over backwards shaking uncontrollably.
We found out he had a Grand Maul Seizure and a Stroke at the same time. I remember getting to the E.R. and seeing my father lying on the bed in the fetal position. I have never been so scared in my life! I totally lost control of my body and fell to the floor. Seeing my father, a Strong Man, as vulnerable as a child. He spent the next month in the hospital having tests done, etc. All that time, all he wanted was to go home. He didn't know what was going on because of the Dementia. Everytime my Mother or one of us (His Children) would leave he would want to go with us, and when we said he couldn't it broke his heart, he thought we were leaving him there and couldn't understand why. A few times I would go visit him and the nurses would have him in restraints! One time, they had him in an adult High Chair like he was a child! I was never so mad in my life! I immediately called my mother who came right down and took care of the situation. After that, Either my Mother or one of us kids would be there with him 24 hours a day so that wouldn't have to happen again.
Christmas Eve came, and he was still in the hospital. What a horrible Holiday that was for all of us, 18 people at my sisters house trying to be jolly. All of a sudden the phone rings and it was one of the nurses at the Hospital, my father wanted to talk to us to see why he couldn't be with us on Christmas Eve? He actually though we didn't want him with us, he didn't know he was sick. Hoe do you explain to your father who thinks he is perfectly healthy that he can't be with his family on Christmas?
In Feb, after extensive tests, they found a Tumor in my fathers lungs. He died about 2 weeks later. My Father never did come home, which was all he ever wanted to do.
I am writing this because I wish I could tell my father I Love him one more time. If you have a child, a mother/father, or anyone that means anything to you, PLEASE make sure they know how you feel! No matter how long you think life is, it always turns out too short in the end.